I was told once that emotions influence our creativity... I believe that this is very true. When I'm happy I draw happy cute little things. When I'm mad I draw things tearing other things apart or evil crazy creatures.
But when I'm sad, that's when my creativity level is at its max. It's like I need to keep spewing out different idea's, they just keep coming and I need them out, otherwise they plug up my brain and I sit and angst for hours on end.
Recently, I was talking to my fasha and we've been getting along pretty well, whether its because his girlfriend is a good influence, or maybe he's just realising that I'm not fourteen anymore, I don't know. So I should be quite happy right now. The thing is, one of my friends got sent the hospital, she'll be there for a month, maybe more... Which makes me sad, that alone almost outweighs moving back in with my dad and foster brother. On top of that, I think I'll have to get my fourteen year old min pin put down. I've had her since I was seven, and I've imagined the day she'd get too old ever since. I've been upset about it before, we've been through everything together. She was with me when my parents were divorced, she was there for the half a year I had no friends, she was there when I got kicked out of my house. She was always there for me, and always the one I could rely on for anything (I don't care how cheesy that sounds). And now, she's going to be gone.
Her kidneys have never been very good, being a purebreed (Or inbred as I'd say), but they're starting to fail pretty bad now, she's up a few times every night, which is wearing on me and my sleep habits as well. Her eyesight and hearing is also going...
So, as you might be able to tell, this is not a very good time for me, but hopefully things will pick up again. Thanks to my friends who are there for me =]